My heart is for the Church Girl. We all have different passions in life and some things catch our attention, and move us to action more so than others. Often, this call to action is birthed from a personal experience or challenge in life. This is true for the Church Girl Anthem, which was birth out of my experience as a Church Girl, a title I now love! My experience included some failures, of which the Lord totally transformed into a beautiful masterpiece in the way only He can do. And from those failures also sprang up a passion to see ladies, young and not so young, living a truly beautiful life without a need for explanation to others. If it appears that I’m going hard on my FB page with the Church Girl 20:14 Album, it’s not so you know my name, but rather the message of this album reach as many of my sisters as possible. At one point I almost fell asleep and became a nominal (in name only) Christian, but Christ’s love awakened my heart when He shined His light on me (Eph. 5:14). Many are falling asleep now, but none of my sisters are going down on my watch! Church Girl 20:14 is about identity and reinforces that being in God’s Presence is vital to knowing who we were created to be.
When I was younger I didn’t think I had a testimony due to the stories I heard when folks testified about deliverance. Little did I know, I already had my own story that would eventually develop as time went on. As a little girl I enjoyed God’s Presence, even before I understood salvation. I knew I was His girl, and I knew He loved me. I remember sitting in my room and sensing the presence of God with me. I also remember telling my brother that God had given me my own special language to speak to him and that still amazes me! Some people say that children cannot have true experiences with God, but I know that I had many encounters with Him as a child. I would literally get butterflies when I thought about Him and during those days is when I learned to worship.
As a result of my experiences with God as child, I became vocal early on about my love for the Lord, and as a result, people labeled me as a Church Girl, Goody Two Shoes, Holier Than Thou, etc. Naturally the Church Girl title became not so positive because it made me feel bound in a way. Now I was always a rule follower and loved rules because I felt like I was pleasing God. Once, when I was in the 10th grade, my band teacher caught me writing a formula on my hand for my geometry class. I remember him saying something like, “Sharon, I can’t believe YOU, are doing this”, and then the disappointment in his eyes crushed me. I avoided disappointment at all cost, however that moment confirmed what I felt inside, which was that I had no room to mess up because everyone in church and out of church, including God was watching. People watched me, and I watched me to make sure I was good. Just for the record, I never attempted to cheat again due to being so devastated!
Legalism had burrowed its way into my heart to the point that I believed God would only love and use me based on my ability to follow the rules. When I worshiped God and heard of people being healed and delivered, I believed it had something to do with what I did right. What I mean is that I thought He loved me more when I read my bible, memorized scripture, fasted, prayed all night without sleeping, and such, and then disapproved when I didn’t. These things are important, but they don’t make me look better to God. According to Hebrews 10:14, by the sacrifice of Christ, I am perfected forever! I also love how II Corinthians 3:5 puts it, “Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think anything as of ourselves, but our sufficiency is of God”. Can you say FREEDOM! People often comment about the pureness of worship when I sing, but about 5 years ago, I was convinced that I had lost that pureness. As a matter of fact, I had decided that I would no longer write or sing because I felt that I had lost something that I could not get back, which was my position in God’s heart.
As you can see, I’m still singing and writing because I realized that my position in God’s heart could never be undone by a failure on my part. Geez….that would be an insult to the blood of Jesus! About 3 years ago, I decided to approach my faith and come before God like the little Church Girl in me did so many years ago, way before I knew anything about how to do it right or wrong and that was the best decision ever. My life changed instantly, I saw the Word of God with fresh eyes, my faith increased, and I’m honestly not the same person I was just a few years ago. I experienced transformation and I am continuing to experience it! Now, when you hear the first line of The Church Girl Anthem you will understand it. “I have a standard that I live by each day, it’s more than a set of rules for me, it’s the way that I stay free”. I’m a Church Girl! This title doesn’t bind me, it reminds me that I’m God’s daughter, raised in His house, with my own room that I can visit anytime! Boom!
Phew! Are your eyes tired? Well just come back for Part II then! Lol! The next blog, I go farther into the song, “I’m not going to compromise to keep the world satisfied, I’m just saying, I’m not playing with my faith, I’m committed to Him”. From this I will share on sexual integrity and how virginity and purity are not the same. 🙂
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